Why I can't focus on the present

  •  I signed a housing contract at the Colony for Fall/Winter this coming year, which makes me think I'm moving in there soon. (actually 8 months away...)
  • My brother Taylor is living at the Colony next year too, so if that is soon, then he will also soon be back from his mission! (actually 5 months away...)
  • I'm trying to figure out what I really want to do with my life, which involves making sure I'm in the right major(s) (even though graduation is 3 1/2 years away...)
  • I'm planning classes for those intended majors so I'm trying to set up next year's schedule already (8 months away...)
  • I'm trying to figure out possible opportunities for employment this summer so I can come back to school! (3 months away...)
  • All the boys in my ward are getting their mission calls and they leave in next six months and will be for two years! (so 2 1/2 years until they come home...)
  • Tomorrow never comes (one day away)

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